Monday, February 26, 2007

Let me begin.....

by introducing myself to you; and by telling you that I am no longer a single parent and haven't been for almost 17 years now.

I became a single parent on November 15, 1975. That's when my husband passed away from malignant melanoma and left me with three little children to raise; a daughter, Michelle, age 7, a son, Brian, age 4 and a son, Doug, age 2 1/2. But I felt like a single parent even before that. I started feeling that way back in April of the same year when Dave was hospitalized for surgery and chemotherapy and he was too ill after that to help with the children ever again.

At first I had feelings of anger toward GOD. Why did HE allow this to happen to us? Why couldn't HE have taken a bum from skid row? Why did HE need my husband and the father of my children? Why did HE leave me all alone? Well, HE didn't leave me alone....I just felt that way at the time. I didn't want to go on, I wanted to crawl into a hole and die too. I thought that there was no way I could cope with raising three small children and the demands that they would place on me. I was wrong.

I did raise them and remarried and acquired two more children in the process. That marriage has not always been easy. It isn't a bed of roses trying to blend two families together as one. But, I'm rambling.....I will be addressing more of my feelings and happenings and experiences of being a single parent with each additional post.

1 comment:

Ame said...

Sweet Martie! You have taken my girls and me into your heart and made us your own :) You have stood up next to me and made me "normal" more times than I can count. And, you LOVE your kids and grandchildren in such beautiful ways ... not to mention the beautiful way you love your husband.

Dear God, thank You for Martie and the gift she is to me! Thank You for bringing her maturity and wisdom and experience and heart here to The Covering. May her words bring the same hope and strength to many others that they have brought to me over and over again. I love You, Ame